Mentally speaking, I think I did okay for most of yesterday. I even managed to write above and beyond my post yesterday! The downside is, I feel a little grumbly that it was only 405 words, but I keep telling myself that at least it’s something, and it’s more than what I’ve been doing lately. Today has been less than stellar so far mentally, though I am doing better than I was.
I suppose the problem today is that I am lacking direction. I have things I can do, yes…but it’s a matter of desire and/or motivation, though I have been trying. I might stick my headphones on. I thought about writing, but cannot think of how to start or have anything in mind, and I hate feeling like a blank canvas, so I am at least writing this, so I’m counting this as something.
Debating maybe deleting all the “of the day” type posts. Seems kinda dumb to have them if I’m not doing them anymore.
I don’t know what else to talk about – I’m kind of just going with the mental flow at this point. Not in the mood to play a game for sure, so maybe watch something? I don’t know. I feel like I don’t know anything, but I know that’s being down on myself, and I need to try to turn that around. I am doing less of the down on myself head talk that I was doing earlier, though.
I guess I’ll just stop for now? I’m feeling aimlessly rambly, and I don’t want to do that, so I guess ttfn.